Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Thoughts

Recently after some big ah ha moments with my Owner, She decided to give me a circular series of writing tasks - topics that repeat and this has taken the majority of my writing focus lately. Because the work is more stream of consciousness, it's written for Her eyes only and I haven't been posting it here. But I realized that it's nice sometimes just to note the little moments too...

So here I am.

Remembering that being in this relationship, this marriage - and this dynamic takes constant attention, mindfulness, and dedication. Sometimes those things slip - and when they do, they need a little kick in the ass. But lately I feel like I've been doing the kicking when it needs it so that it's not just Syr having to do it, which feels like growth and healthy and stuff. :) So there's that.

Monday, June 16, 2014

Moments

Getting ready to go out to run errands with Syr, we were in the bedroom getting dressed, being playful. Then She seized the moment... Held me close and paddled my bottom with the small wooden sign paddle She keeps on the dresser.

"Who owns you?" She asks.
"You do, Syr." I whimper
"My slave. My slut. My whore." Every word punctuated with a soft smack of the paddle.

Starting our afternoon together on the right note. Feeling contained. Feeling loved.

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Happy Fathers Day

Happy Fathers Day to the best Daddy any little girl could ever have. I love You, Daddy.

Monday, June 09, 2014

Feeling little

Sometimes, the best moments are the simple and sweet ones. Lately there have been many opportunities for simple little girl bliss - like curling up next to Daddy on my porch swing at dusk or dark, when the fairy lights inside are all lit up. These are the moments that fill up my heart.

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Remembering

Starting the day with some poignant reminders for myself... about respect.. my place... things to keep in mind when I communicate with my Owner.... and those sorts of things... has proven very helpful to maintaining a more respectful tone. It's also helping me re-ground. We were so busy for a couple months that it felt like there wasn't time to be mindful - which is (of course) ridiculous. But making the time, now, feels good.

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Wednesday afternoon musing...

Things I'm thinking about today...

Gratitude - and working on respect in general, particularly when things get intense or tense.
Sex - Just craving my Owner's cock, a good hard romp, and playing with new flavours
Life and busyness - Wishing we had more free time for afternoon quickies and spontaneous play!
Service - feeling on top of the To Do list makes me feel like a better slave, and more peaceful in general.

Monday, May 12, 2014

Blowjob....

Spent a hot, steamy, shower fantasizing about serving Syr orally this afternoon.

It was a really, really, really nice shower.

And that's all I have to say about that.