Still Her little girl

I do most of my writing, these days, in a more locked environment - though I'm not sure that's really necessary. It's just that, often, it's introspective. In that environment, I've been writing almost daily. I actually have an excellent streak in April. The only days I didn't write anything are April 6th, 20th and yesterday - though I did write late Friday night.

In any case, I had a lovely dinner and conversation visit with friends yesterday. As I expressed to them, it always feels so wonderful to be with friends who A: I can be totally myself with and, B: I can talk about kink with. There are complexities to Syr and my relationship and the necessary work and growth and stuff - that is such a BIG part of who She is to me and how I try to live my life - that when big things happen, breakthroughs and otherwise - having people I can talk to about that is really nice.

Syr was supposed to be there with us last night, but is recovering from a back injury/irritation and just wasn't up to it. So I pretty much talked everyone's ears off. LOL But there was talking all around which was really nice. I feel like I got to know my friend's Daddy better, which was really nice. And I also loved seeing how happy my friend is. So that all felt lovely.

As usually happens after I get a chance to spend time around kinky or kink-friendly people, I came home feeling little. Syr wasn't up to a full-blow beating or anything, but She definitely noticed my littleness and asked about it... or rather... asked me what I was thinking about...and I replied... (eventually)... "pain".

She hugged me close, and dug Her nails into my back, and bit my neck and shoulder hard and held on until I softened in Her arms as I always do when She tells me to breathe and makes it clear I'm taking what I'm given. And then She did it all over again. And again. And again. And I just turned into jello in Her arms. I knelt at Her feet just before we crawled into bed and fell into Her arms feeling little and safe and warm. I fell asleep stroking Her back lightly and slept so well.