Yes, Syr!

Syr (playfully demanding): "Make me a tea, bitch!"

me (sassily): "I don't respond to 'bitch'"

Syr: *grabs my collar and yanks it up, pressing me against the wall* "MY Bitch."

Me: *shiver*

Syr:  Now... Make me a tea... BITCH

me: "Yes, Syr."

The right way to start a morning.

The right way to start a morning is most definitely at my Owner's feet with a cup of hot tea ready for Her in my hands. There's a look in Her eyes that She gets that is just for me. And when She says "Thank you, slave", my heart goes all pitty-pat. <3

Gratitude

Yesterday, I was excitedly trying to explain to my Owner how the fact that I'd been bothered by a messy bed and felt like it needed to be fixed right away (as proof of a formed habit) made me proud of my new habit of making it every single day. But, She kept interrupting me to inform me that I should be grateful that I get to serve Her in that way. I thought She was missing the point, that I had noticed the new habit and was proud of myself. Really, I'd been missing the point. The exciting part really is that I am lucky enough to live the lifestyle I love - in service to someone I truly love and respect in all ways. And so in hindsight, I realize that the point really IS the gratitude. Thank You, Syr - for the granting me the privilege of serving You.

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Today started and ended with service. In the morning, I waited by Syr's chair, kneeling, with Her tea in hand. And I gave Syr a pedicure this evening as an anchor point and to end our evening on a positive, service-minded note.

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Served my Owner a tea on my knees upon waking this morning to start the day off on the right foot (er, knee)? We had a pretty quiet day, overall and a productive one. Syr is feeling under the weather today so I'm feeling hovery and probably being annoying - trying to keep a lid on that though!

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This morning I let my Owner sleep while I got up super early to take the car to the shop, get a little work done, have breakfast, straighten the house, and take care of some other little things. When She got up I had a meeting to go to, but when I came back I was feeling fairly service minded. Adjusting to a new, temporary schedule as we're in the midst of another transition period.

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Big changes in our household as we're all having some extra time at home. Started this morning off with my Owner's tea and water service. Feeling grounded.

Just what was needed....

Syr and I have had a very emotional and stressful couple of days. Some stuff happened at Her day job that was really, really wrong and we're looking at next steps - and also some waiting to see if the job will do the right thing.... so lots of pontificating and talking things out and playing out what we would do in various situations/scenarios depending on how it plays out, etc.

On my end, I've been (am) so angry on Her behalf, so fierce about this whole thing, that I kept bursting into tears. I just didn't know what to do with all that anger. I was so worked up and upset and angry and frustrated and sad.

Syr got things emotionally back on track by first unexpectedly giving me a delicious slap across the face, dropping me into sub-space just.like.that. After that, She ordered me to serve Her a tea, naked and on my knees - since we had the house to ourselves.  It was really nice just sitting at Her feet, vulnerable and little, while we talked. She held my hand and drank Her tea and other than the fact that I was naked and on the floor, the conversation was totally normal. There's something extra-blissful about these "normal" D/s moments, these ones that integrate into whatever we're doing. These are the moments that make what we are to each other a lifestyle and not just a string of "scenes" attached to each other.

After a while, Syr slid Her desk chair away from the computer and announced that She was going to fuck me.

*shiver-purr*

She ordered me on to the bed and gave me a long-awaited, and much needed spanking. With my ass still toasty-warm from that, She ordered me onto my back and proceeded to fuck me... well... and hard.

She got into all those perfect positions, the ones that trigger the most intense, emotional, orgasms and ordered me to cum until I physically couldn't anymore and then asked me to do it again. She pushed me past speechlessness, past tears, to full on ugly-cry because the sensations were all so intense. And it was... exactly what I needed.

I don't remember much after that. Except that we went to sleep.

This morning, She wanted me to wake up with Her and used ice to "motivate" me out of bed. After our morning coffee, She threatened me with ice, just playfully, and reminded me what She's done to me with ice, before.

I may have let a "oh yes please, Syr" slip out before I took the time to really think about it. ;) Oops. (heh)

Fast forward... and I'm on the bed, on all fours with I don't know how many ice cubes melting inside me and a whole lot more orgasms tearing through me. There may have been more crying. I honestly don't remember, even though it was only a couple hours ago...

Either way. I'm sitting here, feeling very warm, fuzzy, well-used, owned, happy, and grateful. It was just what was needed...

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Yesterday, Syr got some VERY bad news... the kind that has me all up in arms and so upset and angry on Her behalf I don't even know what to do with myself. It's really thrown us both for a loop but all will end well. It's just really hard right now.

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Yesterday evening, there was a bit of a setback. I'd been doing really well not taking brief (normal) moments of irritation/annoyance personally. But last night I did just that... and it took a little argument to get me back on track - but I suppose in that the most important part is that I did get back on track and I didn't have to psycho-analyze or defend it to death before I started listening.

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Last night, I was feeling pretty burnt out and while I took care of the basic service such as getting my Owner a cup of hot tea and preparing Her dinner, I felt resistant to the other types of service I could have been catering to. For example, She mentioned needing a manicure soon and I realized later on that by "soon" She was probably hoping/expecting that I would offer one right away - but because I was so tired and burnt out it kinda went in one ear and out the other, not totally intentionally but there was some awareness there. Later on, I admitted to Her how I'd been feeling and why I hadn't offered Her a manicure and apologized, which was a productive and healthy step forward.

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Yesterday evening, Syr mentioned in passing that She might be wanting a foot rub later. We weren't in a position to do it right away and, the old me, would have probably promptly forgot. Instead of forgetting, though, I was conscientious about when and how Syr might most appreciate that footrub and after my evening bath, as She was all cozy in bed, I knelt at the foot of the bed and massaged Her feet thoroughly so that after the massage, She could just fall asleep..... WIN!

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A simple cup of tea. A whispered "Syr". Simple rituals to maintain a constant awareness of my place.

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Starting the day on my knees, tea in hand for my Owner feels nice. Today I have a lot of time, unplugged and out of the house. Looking forward to a mellow Sunday

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In spite of a busy day, found an opportunity - though small - for a wee bit of service, this morning. I made my Owner Her tea and delivered it to Her on my knees. Lovely way to begin the day...

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Last night, my Owner - somewhat randomly - decided to start telling me how nice it would be if we had some alone time so that I could just kneel at Her feet and service Her cock, with my mouth. She said if I did well, She would maybe fuck me... but then, She mused, She probably wouldn't need to fuck me to make me cum if I was servicing Her cock. She'd simply need to grab my hair, pull me off Her cock, growl at me to cum, and then drive Her cock back into my mouth.

This conversation made driving... very... difficult.

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Today, I picked up all the ingredients to make a fun (and fancy) dinner for Syr Saturday night. :) I also stayed up to date on all my chores, with the exception of folding and putting away the clean laundry - which I am behind on. Feeling successful.

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Feeling really on top of my chores and to-do's today which always makes me feel better - both from a service perspective, and a general one. I'm still feeling really hormonal and uncomfortable but I feel more focused. Wishing I could just snuggle with my Owner right now.

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I am feeling pissy, hormonal, and generally moody today. But, I have (so far) successfully, not taken that attitude out on my Owner. That may seem like a small obvious (easy) thing ... but it's a big win because I'm very... what's the word Syr used again??? demonstrative with my emotions (good and bad)!

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Doing my chores, today, and thinking of my Owner and how much I love Her - truly with all my heart. We had a really nice and productive conversation late last night about some of my biggest struggles - from an attitude/old programming/baggage standpoint. I feel grateful to have an Owner so invested in my well-being, growth, and health - mentally, physically, and psychologically/emotionally.

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I woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning thanks to hormones and a stupid nightmare that had me waking up in tears. I was awfully combative and mouthy with Syr this morning. Time to shape up so I don't make a mess of today!

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Figured out how to orgasm standing up in the shower. Syr wanted to see how. So I showed Her.

Demolished....

I feel like I've put that as the subject line of a post, before. I probably have. But yeah, that's how I felt as I drifted off to sleep - demolished.

My Owner knows how to break me down, destroy me, tear me to pieces, and then lovingly assemble me again in a way that makes me feel so fresh and new and raw and... owned.

Last night She used Her knife a little... took my breath away a little.... slapped my face a little.... and whispered in my ear in that low growly Owner voice that I can never get enough of.... I swear just Her voice is enough sometimes... and She used the glass cock by hand. One of the surest and fastest ways to totally wreck me.

I
slept
like
a
baby.

Thank You, Syr....

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We're having a really lazy day, today, just sitting around the house, playing video games, etc. We slept in really late and haven't been as interactive as usual. And, somehow, I've still stayed in touch with my 'place'.

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This morning, Syr and I were both awake before the rest of the house, and alone. So, I knelt to serve Her morning tea. It was a lovely, warm and fuzzy way to begin the day.