Wednesday, February 07, 2007

A collar and a bracelet...

Syr purchased a collar for me this last weekend while we were travelling.

It's a beautiful light purple leather and the buckle in back has a hole in the pin that a lock goes through. The lock is silver and heartshaped and the key is kept on Her keyring.

Interestingly, last weekend was also when the special gift I had ordered for Her arrived: a silver cuff bracelet with a black leather inlay. It is a tool to be used by us both as a way to let the other know that we are wanting or needing a more formal or intense headspace. If it is me that is seeking it, I can bring the bracelet to Her and without a word being spoken, She knows I am needing the harder Syr. If it is Her that is wanting a more obedient and formally subserviant slave, She simply puts it on and once I see it, I know. We established certain protocols that are in place whenever She has the bracelet on and it's been an incredible tool in the few days we've used it so far.

As to the collar....

While She has owned me for some time, She had not yet found the perfect collar. The more common places to buy them charge quite a lot for ... well.. not a lot of value (if you ask me). But in this shop we went into just for fun, there it was. It was perfect. It was the only one on the shelves, and wouldn't you know it, it was incredibly inexpensive.



It's the perfect size, and words can not begin to describe the way it felt when She locked it onto my neck for the first time.



Security, Safety, Adoration, Love and many other emotions washed over me. This symbol of Her ownership, the feel of the leather at my throat, is an amazing gift.



It is not to be worn 24/7, (that is what the wedding ring, engagement ring, and bracelet are for) but it is ours.

And when, last night, She put on the bracelet and then put me in Her collar and cuffs and put me on my knees at Her feet, all I could think of was how amazing it felt to float in perfect peace and surrender with Her in control of it all. I found myself, once again, both lost ... and found.